I still don't want to stop my TRT because I love the physical changes that happened to my body, but I am really in dilemma about my gender identity and presentation. Am I still a transguy if I don't mind presenting myself as a woman all weekdays from 9 to 5? Was I just in the phase? I don't have much dysphoria anymore and the identity crisis strucks me. Today, going to work just seems like entering a theater where I have to act as a woman. I had extreme dysphoria at first, but I tolerated it better and better the following weeks. I went back to dressing up as a woman at work. So it got me thinking, is it really worth living as yourself at the expense of losing the things that matter? Why do I place my sense of identity above respect, career, and my family's heritage? It's so hard to earn respect when even my subordinates see me as a child. Bare face, I only look like a 12 year old boy. With heavy makeup and long-hair wigs (plus foamy bra), I look 18 or 21 at best. Like a Transmasculine, you may not always conform 100 as a female or continue to do so all the time, but you do prefer to represent yourself physically and behaviorally as a female due to the internal connection you feel to your feminine side.

It says I am trans and I've been on T for a almost a year, but I've recently had doubts about my social transition as it's harder to get recognized as an adult these days.